Post by Dustin Erikstrup on Mar 21, 2016 4:58:21 GMT -5
(This is going to be long because Proboard would be keep refreshing and I'd lose my entire Diary Room entry repeatedly.)
Victoria left the house and I'm left with Drew, Andrew, and maybe Jessie. I'm feeling very nervous because I feel so alone and that memory wall is huge still, and I feel like it'll take forever to get anywhere close to the end. This house already feels small but there's 12 of us??? That's like, a regular houseful!
I go into the HoH feeling confident and then Julie starts asking this irrelevant shit like "What color was this random ass button week two?" "When you highlight the text in thread B subsection 7 bullet point 3.14 what is the shade you saw on week four?" and I'm like "THE FUCK. I DIDN'T TAKE NOTES ON THE FUCKING BOARD SCHEMES."
I went a while without being called on, and I got one lucky guess. My homie, Drew, gets out on the EASIEST question. Like "Which person has no avatar?" Drew: Hmmmm.....let me guess a PLAYER. NO BITCH IT WAS OBVIOUSLY A FUCKING VIEWER. But whatever. I still was too slow for an easy question against Marcellas who WON HOH, and I'm like FUCK THIS RUNNER UP/THIRD PLACE SHIT AGAIN!
But then Jackie won HoH as well and I'm nervous cuz I don't know her. I ain't never seen her before. I know I'm going up. And what's she do? Puts me up by Eddie. The only thing that kept me happy was that Nick and Lori were up as well.
Veto comes around,and I'm feeling really well, but not too well. I make it over half the way, and I see these presents. I know the Veto is likely going to be taken from me, but there are two out there, and there was really nothing I could trade for, so I risk holding onto it. And I do phenomenally. Jackie got her own veto, and it was down to Nick and Jessie.
Nick knows Jessie won't let him hold onto a veto. I know he knows. He knows I know he knows she knows they know we know bblah blaggh. I like BEG him to take Jackie's and let me hold onto mine and he DEBATES that shit I'm like DO NOT DRAG ME DOWN WITH YOU I AM NICE TO YOUR FACE AND WHILE YOU SCARE ME I AM NOT GOING OUT OF MY WAY FOR YOU TO LEAVE.
He lets me keep my Veto, and I think I'm sweet, I think I'm golden. I'm like "Jessie is my friend, and she's not going to go out of her way to have me lose a veto, right?" And I just politely messaged her when it was announced Nick was the runner up congratulating her, I was genuinely proud of her. And I'm just like please keep that immunity gurl.
*buzzer noise*
She's like "I'm just like, so sorry Dustin, but like, I don't want Jackie to be like, mad at me."
WHAT!?
What the FUCK is Jackie to have her scary enough to make her "MAD"!? I'm sorry? Like, I was the under the impression outgoing Heads of Households can't compete the following week. What's she gunna do? Win Week 9 HoH and be like "Jessie, I have nominated you for eviction because you could have prevented Dustin from winning the Power of Veto and you didn't?" Am I that much of a threat in this game that Jackie would DIE if I did not stay on the block? Is Jackie THAT powerful that she would unleash hell hath no fury and murder your three children for letting me have a veto?
GURL YOU GAVE UP IMMUNITY JUST TO MAKE A BITCH WHO CANNOT TOUCH YOU HAPPY? ARE YOU THAT COMFORTABLE IN THE GAME???
Now, realistically speaking, if she had taken mine, Jackie COULD have put Jessie up as some petty revenge, so the only alternative would have been taking Jackie's which likely would have made her angrier, but Jessie couldn't have been touched, and although I thought I was close to Jessie, I do not see her going out of her way for me.
I'm more so angry and hurt at the BS I got about being "afraid". Everyone's like "It's SO SO HARD nominating people for eviction, I don't wanna nominate three T_T" then how about you THROW SOME FUCKING COMPETITIONS IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE RISKS AND RESPONSIBILITIES OF BEING A HEAD OF HOUSEHOLD.
But that's unrealistic too, I am just venting. But fuck Jackie and fuck Jessie.
If I survive against Eddie, I'll be safe next week, but I won't be able to compete in anything. Drew needs to score in the top half to have a *chance* at staying off the block.
I just want an HoH so I can be taken seriously as a houseguest and take out some of the people I believe are wrking together.