Jessie's Journey

[Jessie Kowalski]

My nom speech is effing lame. I wish I were one of those people with sass and little logic, but I can't do that without thinking about the repercussions!


So I ended up nominating Meg and Victoria instead of Nick. I went to bed thinking Nick was gonna be my nominee, but woke up this morning thinking a Meg/Victoria nomination makes more sense. I still wouldnt pass on the opportunity to BD him, but a straight up nomination so early on with him being a major threat, its a bit scary. Plus, i dont have a good chance in beating him in a duel whereas I might be able to beat Meg/Victoria. So instead, I opened up the lines of communication between us and tried to pass myself off as trustworthy as a potential ally.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I think I suck at this game. I feel bad. Victoria messaged me [not mad], but confused and sad and I'm like nooooo, WHYYYYY?!
But I don't understand why she didn't make an effort with me before I made nominations! She said congrats and good luck and blah blah.. How about... Let's talk game. What are you thinking? SOMETHING!!!!

[Jessie Kowalski]

Eddie is such a loose cannon. Does he not realize how obvious he is? If anyone listens to a word he says, they're fucking morons. He's not afraid to piss people off. He's a little shit stirrer and not in a good way.
He sent me a message asking if I'm backdooring someone (which btw, everyone plays in veto so bd isn't an option this game). I told him no so then he says... Oh cuz Nicole said she'd use veto on Meg and thought u knew cuz thought u two still spoke.

Shut up Eddie. I know you're telling people that Nicole and I are super tight. You're obvious as hell. He's an idiot.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Victoria: Umm I honestly don't know. I don't know who you're close with and would be willing to put up
But I think I'd be evicted against Nick or Nicole or Andrew or Shane or Danielle lol that's a lot of people but still.

...

The people she doesn't want to be up against maybe?!

[Jessie Kowalski]

I didn't realize that I had to make a replacement within 12 hours lol. Not that I love dragging things out, but I thought I'd have time to talk to people before making the decision. Lori, Drew and Marellas are nowhere to be seen. How wonderful!


Anyways, I'll leave a bootlist ceremony here. I'll be at work by the time this is due and I don't wanna rush in the morning in case I speak to them before!


I have to decided to nominate Nick in Meg's place. Nick, you're a huge competition and social threat, which is troubling because I feel like our conversations feel a bit forced and I'm not sure where you and I really stand in the future of this game. 

Good luck Nick and Victoria.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I am supposed to have:

Lori
Shane
Drew
Andrew
Dustin
Marcellas
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And apparently Eddie might be willing to as well.

We'll see. I really hope I can pull this off!

Nicole is after me big time now. Eek.oh well.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I have to say that I feel very stressed over this decision lol. I am not good at making moves because I hate the backlash and I fear the anger.
Nick seems like a good guy and hopefully he won't make this personal.
I'm very aware that I could end up leaving next if Nicole wins HOH, lol. Shane told me she is out for blood. Oops.
I guess I could have stayed in the background and just let things happen around me, but I would have been bored and would have remained clueless over what's going on around me in the house.

I'm still not completely sure. I feel like there are quite a few relationships and small alliances going on, but I'm trying my best to get in between them.

I know that Lori and Drew are super tight, but I also know that Drew values me as well. Drew is in a bogus alliance with Nick and Nicole. He told Lori about it and she told me. He doesn't know that I know. 

Andrew and Victoria are super tight as well. He told me he was 100% keeping her, lol. Not so subtle. 

Shane and Nicole are obviously tight. And Nick leaving probably means that he and Nicole well get tighter, but so will her and Victoria. It's definitely scary, but someone has to go from that group.

After this week, I reallllly hope someone I'm close to wins HOH and keeps me safe. Then my next target is Nicole. I wanted to separate her from Nick, but according to Shane, she's coming for me HARD. So oh well... She wants to play the revenge game, that's fine. I'll just tighen my other relationships so that she has a hard time doing it! I'm gonna Porsche her! ELOHEL. 

[Jessie Kowalski]

Seems like people are on board, for the most part.

I think I trust Danielle, Andrew, Drew and Lori the most to evict Nick. Then I am pretty sure Marcellas and Shane are while the others say they will too, but maybe not. [besides for Nicole].
Let's talk about Nicole for a moment.
This girl has some serious game issues. She is throwing a bitchfit over her close ally possibly leaving. CHILL. I didn't nominate YOU, I nominated NICK. She's lost it.Shes telling people she hates me and then won't answer my IM. Listen little girl. It's easier to get 5 votes than 6, so instead of ignoring me, you should be trying to get me to vote to evict in your favour! To be fair, she can't possibly sway me, but she hasn't even tried!
On top of that, it's dumb to alienate someone. I guess she thinks that if she's vocal about her target, people will be less likely to come after her since she'll be after me. Instead of that, why not try and work with me? The others will all get together and laugh at us coming after each other and we will both end up on jury crying over why we didn't work together. 
I hope she will cool off soon-ish cuz people like Meg, Dustin and Marcellas will surely sneak their way to the end. 

I love Shane so much, but I'm not sureeeeee he's as loyal to me as I'd like him to be

Also, Andrew and I spoke a lot today. It's actually funny cuz he told me yesterday that he thinks Nick is my target cuz he's strong and liked, but prob doesn't talk to me much which would make him public enemy #1. Hey... Maybe he DOES know me! Lol. I didn't confirm it till today. But I think I can trust him a lot more now than I did just yesterday!

[Jessie Kowalski]

I sent Nicole an IM saying hey Nicole. She didn't answer me for 40 minutes and then she finally just said hey. Then I said how's it going and she said she's tired and not feeling great and that people have been lying to her all day and blah blah. Then I sent her a long ass paragraph about this not being a move against her. Meh. When you're angry, it's hard to see the logic. Maybe when she's not as angry, she'll realize that.

[Jessie Kowalski]

It's funny how Andrew thinks he got people to evict nick. He'd come and tel me he got "so and so" while I knew for hours that they were voting that way. Specifically Lori, Shane and Danielle. It's too funny. He thinks he has way more power than he truly does!

Sooooo, Drew started an alliance of him, Lori and me. Then we discussed getting a 4th and we all agreed on Shane. Lol.

It's perfect since they're my top 3 allies. Love it when things work out like that!
I think Lori and I are super tight within that alliance (and of course me and Shane). Drew, I can't tell who he's closer to between me and Lori though.

I also have to keep in mind that Meg and Lori are tight! So far she's feeding us information, but at some point she'll realize that Meg is a great person to take to the end so we will have to somehow cut Meg loose.
Besides for that, I've got a good relationship with marcellas and Andrew on the side. I'm gonna continue to work on my relationship with Danielle and even Victoria, but I think that's all I'm gonna get.

Dustin and Victoria are tight. They started an alliance with Drew (prob cuz they see him as a number and nothing else). Nicole is still close to Victoria and Meg I assume. She's also trying to build an army.
So I've got these little things to work on, but mainly, I'm excited about this alliance.

[Jessie Kowalski]

It's so difficult sitting on the sidelines while my allies are gonna be fighting for HOH [hopefully]. 

I'm in an alliance with Lori, Shane and Drew. Each of us have our side deals:

Lori: Meg
Drew: Dustin and Victoria
Jessie: Marcellas and Andrew [although keeping the Andrew thing somewhat under wraps!]
Shane: Haven't established this one yet within the group, but Lori and I spoke about it possibly being Danielle or Andrew. I know it's Nicole, but I didn't tell her this.

So for this HOH, they need to come after each other's side allies as well as common enemies. Since they don't know that Nicole is Shane's side deal, he is going to have to be creative in dodging it. I think we all know that Eddie is his main target though, so it shouldn't be too difficult to get out of that one. Also, Lori's main target is Nicole so that works out. The only thing besides for that is that I HOPE someone comes after Vicrtoria. Drew can't, so it's going to have to be Shane or Lori. Meanwhile, Drew is going to have to come after Meg lol. 
From my 3 allies, I think Drew has the best shot at winning it for us because he is seen as a free agent and someone people wanna try and snatch up! I need them sooooo badly this week, it's not even funny. My HOH week could either turn out to be a gigantic fail or a huge success depending on it biting me in the ass!

[Jessie Kowalski]

OMFG YES. 

[Jessie Kowalski]

I have found myself in somewhat of a predicament.

When I got Pandora's Box, I told both Shane and Lori. Now Lori has HOH and got a PB as well. Shane mentioned that if another door opens, she'll know I opened it.. Good point.
I'm trying to balance the fact that I told them both about my "prize" without them knowing the other knows, lol. It's sounds dumb, but it's a pretty good strategy since they both believe I'm closest to them.
But now I told Shane that if Lori approaches me about PB, I might just tell her. I guess to cover my basis. And then I told him that if I do, he's gotta pretend he doesn't know cuz she'd be suspicious. This is silly.


Meanwhile... Seems like Lori got a crappy PB! Damn.



I think she'll nominate Marcellas and Eddie and then maybe go for Nicole if veto is used.
IDRC. I think Nicole and Victoria are my biggest threats. Meg isn't far behind. Whoever she comes after, I just need it to be one of those girls..


Omfg, I sound so catty like Loveita! But it has nothing to do with them being girl characters hahah. That would be silly.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'm glad Lori and I had a chance to speak before she opened Pandora's box. All of a sudden mid convo, she says "bye guys" and poof, gone. When we saw the post, we realized why haha.

So I started thinking a little bit about my position in this game. I don't want to come off as shady, especially since Lori is somewhat paranoid enough as it is, but I also want to build on my relationships in this game.
Looks like Lori is going to nominate Eddie and marcellas (at least from what he spoke about right after she had won). So if that's the case, I hope to win POV and save marcellas. This way she will hopefully nominate either Nicole or maybe even Victoria. Either leaving would be good.
I don't want to see marcellas go just yet, although maybe that's what she wants? Good thing is that last time we spoke, we said that hopefully veto will be used so even if she changes her mind in the meantime, it's not my fault since we couldn't speak after!
So I hope I can win this veto and take marcellas off. I'd love to be put in a position where I can solidify another relationship in this game. Plus, it'll hopefully hide my other close relationships!

Besides for that, I plan on working on my relationships with Meg, Victoria and Danielle. They're still people I consider threats and wouldn't pass up an opportunity to take out, but in the meantime, I can't count on myself to win competitions since i generally suck at them, so it's best I try and work out some more side deals. Which brings me back to the beginning of this post about seeming shady. Idk what the relationships are in this game and if they tell each other things... So I'm a bit scared to get into some other alliance, but individual relationships can always be improved!

[Jessie Kowalski]

Shit, she went for it. Ugh. Now I have to no excuse to win veto and use it. How can I possibly explain using it?! Sucks.
I'd be better off not winning it then cuz Marc might expect me to use it if I were to win and I can't let my alliance down and specifically Lori by using the veto on one of her nominations.

Sucks. Fingers crossed that Marcellas wins it? Possible?! Idk.


Besides for that, I messaged Meg tonight. We are having a conversation on skin care and beauty products, which is actually something I loveeeee and really enjoy talking about [ya ya ya, girl stuff]. But no, I tried selling that stuff for a little while [failed at it btw] and she's an estethician so it makes sense. Also.. Just trying to find any common ground with this girl. I reread her intro and saw that she's all sweet to your face, but a B in her DR. I bet she's cursing me out. HI MEG <3 anyhoo.

Not nominated. Not gonna try and win veto. #PrayForMarcellas

[Jessie Kowalski]

Ugh. Andrew is already talking about evicting Marcellas. GTFO. I might actually try and win this thing. If I do and then use it, I'll tell Lori that people were talking about evicting him over Nicole.
God, this sucks cuz I'm sure she'll feel like I did it to save HIM [partly true], but it's really mostly about evicting Nicole!

[Jessie Kowalski]

Doubt I won that veto. I tried doing whatever I could to find as many words as possible, but I've got not photoshop skills whatsoever and I'm sure there are people who know how to change the colours in ways to make certain words stand out.
Oh well. That's all I had time to find!
Hopefully Nicole doesn't win it :-\ and if she does, please God let Victoria find herself on the block!

[Jessie Kowalski]

<33333 Eddie vetoing marcellas!! Yessss. Ok. Now Lori needs to put Victoria up on that block and let the campaigningggg begin! God I hope it's Victoria that goes up lol.

[Jessie Kowalski]

5 votes to evict:

Dustin: Shane, Meg
Nicole: Drew, Jessie

Danielle, Eddie, Marcellas, Andrew and Victoria

I have no freakn clue how this week is gonna go. Andrew says he's leaning towards keeping Nicole. Victoria and Danielle haven't answered me and the other two haven't been online yet.
Nicole might end up staying which Frkn sucks. How am I gonna get a deal out of someone who doesn't know how to give them out lol. 
We'll see.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'm working sooooo hard guys. Trying to get Andrew on board to see the big picture. If there's a comeback, the idea of reuniting Nicole and nick is awful. AWFUL.
Please god.
Now apparently Victoria wants to keep Dustin. Andrew wants to keep Nicole.
But he's slowly warming up to the idea of keeping Dustin.
Me and drew need them badly!!! And then we just need one more vote. I hope we can count on Marc and Eddie. Please gangsta God.